Seeds of Doubt

Yesterday was our 1st year Anniversary. Although we have been together since 1996, This week was special in it's own unique way.

You see for the last nine years I have never been overly jealous or possessive of my husband.
I have always been secure in our relationship. So much so, in fact, that perhaps from time to time he questioned my affection for him. Although he works away from home alot, I never worried.

The other day I talked to a friend that works up north with my husband. They informed me of a overly friendly but nice looking lady that works in his office.

Well a seed of doubt was planted, and for two nights I tossed and turned unable to rest. My mind a running film of long blond hair, big smiles and tight jeans walking back and forth in front of his desk. I couldn't take it, it was eating up at my very core, and I found myself feeling like a threated lioness. All the sudden I was up nights going through reciepts, unknown phone numbers and smelling his clothes.

Tired of the exhausting investigative work, I finally asked him about her. He chuckled to himself, and at me for being so silly and for even doubting him. He filled in some blanks and reassured me he wasn't shopping as his fridge at home was fullfilling and full. (the kids and myself)

With that he rolled over and gave me a big hug and kiss.

After all this I came to realize something, how lucky I was. And more importantly how much I love and appreciate him. Quietly I know my being jealous was silly. But I needed this to remind me of the value of our relationship, and he needed to know just how much I cared.

And So For Our !st Anniverary I think I'll send the lady in his office a card. Ironically, she reminded us of the value of each other. Something we often forget to do.